1983 – Part 2 0f 9 – First Schizophrenia Attack!

Salam sejahtera.

When i was in form three at SM La Salle Tanjung Aru Kota Kinabalu, i can still remember the last period in my classroom when suddenly i’m in a ‘strange place’.. i kept asking myself “where am i” several times. I felt so confused and i looked around the classroom, there’s several other students listening the teacher while i’m confused and started to feel afraid.

Why am i afraid, i’m sure you know why. Because i felt that all the sudden i’m feeling not as i was before 15 minutes ago.

The ‘strange’ feeling last about 30 minutes and after that.. when i got home, i felt sick and i’m absent from school almost 2 weeks. During that time there was a political conflict in Sabah. And worst to come is it’s nearly a ‘war’ between two different religions. I don’t want to write it down here in details because i don’t want to remember it. I hate it!

So.. the whole two weeks was so hard for me because i’m entering a ‘new strange world’. People who had been there know what i mean. It’s very hard to explain exactly in words what i’ve felt. It lasted two weeks only and after that, i’ve experienced it over and over every year, especially nearly end of each year. Imagined what kind of an experienced that be. I hate it!

… to be continue

Tags: amnesia, fear, mysterious