Salam sejahtera.
Well I guess its has been a long journey for me now although it seems all my worries were mixed up with these kind of trouble. I’m trapped and its very hard indeed to let loose. I tried to be as perfect as I can be but many times I failed to navigate myself out. I hate this happening to me but I don’t have any other options. I realized in many ways that I should managed myself according to the rules but often I missed the real fact that I’m not incapable of finishing the task given to me perfectly.
I wanted to act normal as many as I could in many situations as if I’m in controlled but then again, things end up not the way they should. Oh well, I’ve to accept it or otherwise it will be the worst ‘flight’ ever!
I wonder why God put me to the test. Maybe because I’m one of those in millions that has a special gift. Am I gifted? I don’t think so. I’m not a talented person and almost what I do never finished. Sometimes and most of the times I end up miserable. So to speak, I’m trapped!
God, help me and forgive me….
