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A long wait for Freedom

msham70 — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 19:09:34 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

Well I guess its has been a long journey for me now although it seems all my worries were mixed up with these kind of trouble. I’m trapped and its very hard indeed to let loose. I tried to be as perfect as I can be but many times I failed to navigate myself out. I hate this happening to me but I don’t have any other options. I realized in many ways that I should managed myself according to the rules but often I missed the real fact that I’m not incapable of finishing the task given to me perfectly.

I wanted to act normal as many as I could in many situations as if I’m in controlled but then again, things end up not the way they should. Oh well, I’ve to accept it or otherwise it will be the worst ‘flight’ ever!

I wonder why God put me to the test. Maybe because I’m one of those in millions that has a special gift. Am I gifted? I don’t think so. I’m not a talented person and almost what I do never finished. Sometimes and most of the times I end up miserable. So to speak, I’m trapped!

God, help me and forgive me….

7 Tahun Masih Menyusu – Breast feeding her 5 and 7 year olds

msham70 — Sun, 10 May 2009 18:51:38 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

I don’t find it weird though, it’s good by the way.

Setengah orang mungkin menganggap ia keterlaluan…

Far Beyond The Sun – Yngwie Malmsteen

msham70 — Fri, 08 May 2009 18:05:55 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

I liked Yngwie since 1985… he’s a great guitar player to me.

Why do i liked HUMMER!!

msham70 — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 13:24:19 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

Wow..a Hummer is like no other.. Awesome SUV, i really do liked and hoped to have one (Hummer H3) in my hands one day. Truely amazing! A Hummer is not for everyone.

Here’s a vid from Youtube.

I Dreamed A Dream from Les Miserables – Sang by Susan Boyle – With Lyrics

msham70 — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 17:30:00 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

To be a singer or a performer.. most people think that you must have a good look at your face and a good voice of course. What do you think of the image below, is she…ermm he… can sing. .

You know that have changed my cynical thought after i looked at Susan Boyle when she’s performing at Britains Got Talent 2009. I came upon the video at youtube today and it has 25,714,086 views so far.

..47 Year old Susan Boyle wows the judges with her performance in the auditions for Britains Got Talent 2009, singing I dreamed a dream from Les Miserables.

Click Here to watch the vid from youtube. A star is born!

“NEVER JUGDE A BOOK BY ITS COVER”

Here’s the lyrics:

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high,
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he’ll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms
We cannot weather…

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

Moonlight Sonata by Ludwig van Beethoven

msham70 — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 15:11:19 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

Ludwig van Beethoven

Youtube by clyfton

Enjoy and try to feel it deeply…..

Peace of MIND

msham70 — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 03:09:18 +0000

Salam sejahtera..

well this video is me on youtube..

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Just a simple yet not a complete song sang by me. Anyway here’s the simple lyrics.

I don’t know where will i’ll be,

I woke up in the mornin’

see the bright light

shining to my face

it’s a good day

a perfect life

sleep so well

i’m happy

la la i’m so blind

until today

my faith…

Expressions tells u everything, but not really

msham70 — Sun, 26 Oct 2008 17:45:11 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

Sometimes u need not to speak something to make people to understands u….

I like u very much MRirian

Three option – 2B a Monkey, 2B a Dog or 2B a man with full of DEBIT!

msham70 — Sat, 10 May 2008 17:20:42 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

My life is a like a shit but i’m eating that SHIT alone!

God had already made me as a human since long time ago, i’m not a dog, nor not a centipede or maybe just a lonely stone at a remote area river somewhere in this world. Before my mother had given birth to me or lets get back 40 years from now, she’s not yet getting married or maybe since she was a little girl she was so happy with her elder sister (died on the age of 6, unknown disease) rather than his elder brother. God has already put my destiny to this world with so many ‘test an task’ and sometimes i’m totally bored with it and after i was born from my mother ‘front door’, i cried so loud, everybody was laughing at the same time. They laughed because their happy and several maybe laughing because the’re some old bitch hypocrite!

Now, i’m here at the age of 38 on this coming October (i don’t know whether i’m going to live longer enough to reached until that month, but hopely i’ll make it, because i’ve many things to accomplish and to achieved in this short coming life). For those who’d want to die early because you’re are so damn fool, just do it if that can make you feel ‘better’, i’m sure you’ll make a very special seat in the hell! Go for it bitch! But if you continue with you life and fight all your problem.. then i saluted you as a warrior of yourself! Hope you’ll win the ‘battle’.

Three options. One; is to become a monkey, who sits and sometimes move around from one tree to another tree to get foods for their stomach and maybe for their young ones in need. A responsible monkey that indeed! An old leader of a monkey summon all monkeys in their group to gather around to make FIRE!

Two; is to become a dog, arf arf arf, ah no

Three; man with full of debits….

to be not continue….

MUST READ!!!!!! FOR MARRIED COUPLES

msham70 — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 12:37:46 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

PAPA..

This is so sweet

pls spend 10 min to read this

To All Married Couples and Singles Who Intend To Get Married
(Worth reading this)

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate
quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t kn ow how to open my mouth. But I had to let her kn ow what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic
calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away
the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I kn ew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just
did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
months time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she
has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So
when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words
brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed
her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that
I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning… This was the woman who had given ten years of her
life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became
easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it
hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to
school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office… jumped out of the car swiftly
without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry,
Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I
said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove
away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:

’I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart’

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank
balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage.

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

We teach some by what we say
we teach some more by what we do
But we teach most by what we are
- Un kn own-

You don’t get to choose how you are going to die, or when, but, you can decide how you are going to live, here and now.

Remember:
people will forget what you said …
people will forget what you did …
But people will never forget how you made them feel….

‘You Have to Learn Lessons Also from Others Mistakes because you will Not Get Time to Do All the Mistakes on Your Own‘

regards…

sara

Fake UFO

msham70 — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 11:13:09 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

and, take a look at this one.. hehehehhehe

Empty

msham70 — Wed, 25 Jul 2007 11:03:56 +0000

Salam sejahtera

Between My Schizophrenia and Law of Attraction!

msham70 — Fri, 13 Jul 2007 15:53:08 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

It has been nearly a month now my schizo came to me and now i am trying to be what i want to be. Yes, if i say i am sick, i gonna be sick but that’s not going to happen.. as i typed these words to be a sentences ain’t easy.. it’ll be sentences anyway.

“Man becomes what he thinks about”

Although coping with schizo isn’t easy, but like attract like and i must find a way to send my own frequencies to the universe and ask for what i really want. I go for it! I want to ask, believe and receiving like i do already have it! And there’s a lot more to ASK!

System Of A Down – Lonely Day With Lyrics

msham70 — Sat, 23 Jun 2007 13:19:27 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

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System Of A Down – Lonely Day

The new videoclip of System Of A Dow, Lonely Day

Very good clip.

Download

Here’s the lyrics

Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can’t stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It’s a day that I’ll never miss

Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day that I’m glad I survived

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I’m lonely and trap in my own world since i got schizo and ADD. But i’m fighting!

Think U KNOW!

msham70 — Wed, 02 May 2007 15:57:31 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

Think u know who you really are? Think u know what is your purpose? Think u know how this earth was design? Think u know who is your GOD? Think u know how sad feels? Think u know how to have fun? Think u know how to have better sex? Think u know where you’re from? Think u know everthing? Think u know what is true happiness? Think u know how to get really angry? Think u know where to find real love? Think u know how to open your third eye? Think u know how to use .php? Think u know how to operate an aeroplane? Think u know how get cook nice food? Think u know how coca cola made of? Think u know how death feels? Think u know how the war begin? Think u know how to a war? Think u know an Apple ibook works? Think u know what you’d really hate? Think u know nothing? Think u know how to stay out of trouble.

Think u know how to stay in peace and harmony?

Water Rafting Launch

msham70 — Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:31:02 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

From Right:

Whoooo, Aaauuuww, Aaarrrggh & Aaaaaarrkk. But the best performance comes from Aaauuuww.

Tracking down the “I”

msham70 — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 15:54:49 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

It has been long now, and i’m still searching for the ultimate goal in my whole life. The “I”. “I” is the person of yourself. “I” am yourself. It’s not easy, yet to accomplish the goal, “I” must read a good source of book that delivers the masterkey of the truth within myself. A book that can open up your mind and your soul about the truth. All this time “I” have been lost in myself. I know it’s sound crazy but i think a lot of you out there already knew yourself who you really are. Yes, from the outside you know, i’m talking about yourself from within. That’s what i meant about “I”. Whoa… it’s hard, but once you get to know the “I”. YOU CONTROLLED EVERYTHING!!!

It’s good to be LOVE! – And I Love HER – The Beatles

msham70 — Thu, 26 Apr 2007 13:49:29 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

You know, everybody needs to be loved. Like it or not, accept it or not, we must have love to live. Because without the love from someone you know, or already know, i guess you wont have the ability to carry on whatever things you’re doing. Sometimes love hurts, but sometimes it’s worth it. Sometimes, love makes people so damn stupid. But sometimes love can move a mountain. Love is a powerful. No one can changed a tiny love with an ocean of money. A true love comes from a true heart. Love can emerge without a force, but sometimes there’s a love to emerged with force. You can tell when you’re in love. Love is beautiful. Love is a melody in your soul that nobody could see it, the only person who felt it is yourself. Love never dies. Love will live forever and no fire could vanish a true love. A remarkable desire to fullfill the entire life with love are the most magnificent things we’ve done. Some could manipulate love with hate, and visa versa. So do take care of someone’s love before it’s too late. Love is like a diamond and its always shine in your heart!

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The Beatles – And I Love Her

The Beatles – And I Love Her from A Hard Day’s Night movie.

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And I Love Her Lyrics
Artist(Band):The Beatles

Here’s the lyrics
I give her all my love
That’s all I do
And if you saw my love
You’d love her too
I love her

She gives me ev’rything
And tenderly
The kiss my lover brings
She brings to me
And I love her

A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me

Bright are the stars that shine
Dark is the sky
I know this love of mine
Will never die
And I love her

Mysterious BONE – Can you guess what it IS!

msham70 — Sun, 22 Apr 2007 12:26:27 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

My father get these bone while hooking up his fishing net at the nearby sea in Kinarut and my father brought it back to show me what it is. I said to my father, may be it an baby elephant bone. . i guess! Maybe you know, so here’s the three images about the bone.

So can anyone of you guess what kind of animal these is! Thank you!

Imagine IF..

msham70 — Sat, 21 Apr 2007 15:50:13 +0000

Salam sejahtera.

..there’s no water. Where would be the source of it. Imagine if men can gave birth and woman doesn’t take the responsibility anymore. Imagine if love wasn’t exist, how do we feel something wonderful, the definitions would change the world view about the relations between men and women. Imagined if all people are getting crazy and killed each other without mercy. Imagined if all the creatures in the ocean were so poisonous.. it can killed us if we eat them as seafood dinner. What if all the weird things we imagined turn into a reality.. do you want it.. I don’t i”ll say! No beacuse i’m afraid of it but.. it truely impossible right.